FOR THE BROKENHEARTED MINISTRY

His Love Will Bring You Back To Life

9/5/2021

Last night (2/24/16) I began to worship through this song by Jeremy Riddle about God’s love while in my prayer room. As I breathed out the lyrics in a posture of worship, the love of God began to permeate my soul and he spoke to me through a vision.
In this vision, I'm watching in third person. As if I'm out of my body and I had an aerial view of this happening to me:

Vision:
I saw the sky, which was a beautiful mix of pink and gray clouds that were swirling. It was the appearance of dusk (almost evening time). Then these bright, illuminating white clouds in the sky, swirled together and formed two huge hands which were the Father’s hands. They came out of the sky and went down to the earth where I was standing and looking up. I was so small next to these huge hands that were formed out of the bright white clouds.
In his hand, was a brown leather book and all of a sudden there was a "knowing" that this book was filled with instructions. When I opened the book, it fell to the middle pages and just like a pop up book; real trees, flowers, and birds popped up. They were real, alive, and moving, unlike a natural book of pages. The word “LIFE” came to me.
Then God's hands began to produce what appeared to be glowing, bright-white liquid. I knew the liquid to be "His love." It flowed from God’s hands like a river and bled into me, starting at the top of my head. As the liquid touched me, that part of my body started to glow until my whole body was filled. When the liquid finally reached my feet, it didn't stop. It kept flowing from the bottom of my feet and began to seep into the ground. Wherever the liquid (love) touched, the ground began to glow.
Then I noticed my view had changed. I was now watching myself (still in third person) standing on top of the entire globe. 🌎
As this liquid love flowed through me and out of my feet it seeped into the whole world, slowly. The globe was dark, as when looking at a satellite picture of the earth at night time.
Starting at the top of the globe where I stood, receiving from the Father, like I was a conduit of God’s love being poured into the earth. The glowing liquid flowed throughout the world like white neon rivers and streams. I could easily see where the Light of Love flowed because the contrast of the dark-night globe (as seen in the picture above). The earth eventually was covered in this bright/white glowing substance!
Then the vision ended. This was not a dream, I was awake.

Interpretation:
I feel like the Lord is going to equip me with his instruction on how to radically pour out his love and power (through me) so that I can take it to the ends of the earth.
Notice the book he handed me was coupled with the word LIFE. Well, that would be the book of LIFE and who is in the book of LIFE? The believers.
He handed me that book and I knew it to be his special instruction to me. It felt like I was being called specifically to his believers, who are in the book. He was sending me to them so I could share his love with them. Which I have always felt a special call to His people.

The song I was listening to while I received this vision was saying:
"Receive My Love!"
"Love of God, overflow."
"Permeate all my soul"
"His love will bring you back to life!"

Here is the song, incase you want to hear it:
(Jeremy Riddle, let him love you, spontaneous)
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-5SVRe0-1Fg

Fast forward to today which is September 5, 2021. It has been 5 years since I received that vision and wrote the above.
Beginning in early 2019, God begin to train me in deliverance. By January 2021, he fully released me to transform ‘For The Brokenhearted Ministry’ into a full-time deliverance ministry that I would lead, specifically for his church. Today through the ministry, deliverances are happening weekly and three people have already joined the deliverance team. Christians are being radically set free and touched by God’s liquid love on a daily basis and it’s spreading like wild fire and soon across the globe! When he released me to set the captives free, he gave me a wealth of heavenly knowledge, instruction, strategies, plans, and ideas. Which was also prophesied over me by two pastors on 9/7/19 and 7/14/21 at conferences. Specifically they said that God would give me new strategies and plans (instructions) in order to do new and big things for God. Everything is quickly aligning, just as God showed me in the vision. To God be the glory!

The Prayer Room

5/6/2021

"When you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you." - Matthew 6:6

In 2010, the office at my home became a secret place where I could tuck myself into the reality of God. It was then, that He taught me how to close the door in order to allow all distractions to slip away and learn how to steady my heart with His. I slowly started to collect items that I could set up in His presence, while I enjoyed listening for His heartbeat. It is not uncommon to prepare rooms in our house for people we love. The baby is presented with a nursery, while our guests are lavished with a dinning room that is coincidentally only used twice a year (Thanksgiving and Christmas). Why is it that I didn't have a room dedicated to the King?
When we moved into our new home, I was determined to have a place for us to meet. The house we purchased had an "extra" room that was deemed wasted space to everyone else. As for me, it was the reason I wanted the house. Little by little, His room was filled with things that pleased Him. I could feel His approval as I carefully selected each item. Some of the items were gifts, given to me by loved ones, and I could sense His hand moving over them.
The newest addition is a 36x48' painting of the Holy Spirit moving and breathing throughout the Cross on Calvary. I visited a church recently and this painting was on the stage. I was mesmerized by the colorful canvas and determined to somehow hang a copy in my prayer room for the Lord to enjoy. The first thing I did was beg God to make it happen. I didn't know how and I didn't know where to start. My husband began reaching out to artists to see if they could paint it. I contacted the church to receive permission to replicate it and to my surprise they put me in contact with the artist. After speaking to him, he sent me a link to purchase the canvas and I bought the biggest size he offered.
As God would have it, the artist himself, came to my prayer room to drop it off personally. He told us the painting was named, "The Baptism" and it was birthed out of heartache and pain. 'Of course it was,' I thought to myself. We all stood in the Lord's room; The artist, Jason, Noah, and myself, holding hands while he blessed and prayed over the painting. He asked the Lord to powerfully use it for those who come here to receive prayer. It's this very room, where God calls the brokenhearted and crushed in spirit to come and receive freedom. Demons have been cast out and the sick have been healed in this room. Jesus says, "If you cast out demons by the spirit of God, then you will surely know the Kingdom of God has come upon you" (Matthew 12:28). I intended the room to be mine and His, I should have known He would want to share it with others.

Old Fashioned Milk Bottles

8/8/2020

I received a random call from a woman who said she had been praying for me. While she prayed, God showed her several visions that she wrote down in order to share with me later.
1.) She saw a left ear and knew that I had been listening to the enemy, who was currently speaking loudly in my life.
2.) She also saw old-fashioned glass milk bottles formed into the shape of a cross, but they were empty.
This insight the Lord gave to her on my behalf was prophetic. Unbeknownst to her, over the past two months I had been bombarded with a spirit of doubt that relentlessly whispered into my “left” ear. All throughout the day and into the night, doubt, would harass my mind.
I’m a firm believer of what the Word of God says on how to combat this, which is found in 2 Corinthians 10:5
“We cast down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and we take CAPTIVE EVERY THOUGHT to make it obedient to Christ.”
These past two months, I had failed to take the spirit of doubt captive from harassing me (through my thought patterns) and make it surrender to Christ.
Instead of being proactive in the fight, the result landed me as empty as those old fashioned milk bottles.
But here’s where it gets interesting; A completely different woman texted me on July 24th and mentioned that the Lord had put me heavily on her heart so she committed to pray for me. While she prayed, she got a vision.
She saw me hooked up to an IV and I was being FILLED BACK UP WITH FLUIDS that were glistening with the Truth and God’s word. She said the IV had to be a continuous stream but I would be completely filled by those two things.
I reached out to the first woman who had visions of the ear and empty bottles and asked if she happened to write the date of when God showed it to her? Sure enough, in God-like fashion, He also gave her that vision on July 24th. The same exact day He showed the second woman the vision of how I will be filled back to fullness.
If you want to know why I’m so in love with the Lord; It’s personal, unexplainable encounters like this that can take the hardest of hearts and melt them into a puddle of liquid love. A relationship with the Lord is undeniably the most fascinating treasure hunt. We get to participate in putting together the clues in order to find Him (Jeremiah 33:3). But if either one of those women felt ashamed or embarrassed to tell me what God showed them (or they struggled with doubt), I would have missed finding the treasure.
Oh, and the key to opening the treasure box is always, FAITH!
#ItsImpossibleToPleaseTheLordWithoutFaith

Waiting On The Lord...

7/16/2020

In the start of 2019, I began seeking the Lord for help regarding a serious matter in my life. My seeking quickly became desperation and I found myself, locked in the closet, crying out to God for resolution. I have always seen the Lord through the lens of how you view a best friend, therefore I speak to Him that way. I tell Him everything; the good, the bad, the ugly. I don’t speak to impress Him with religious rhetoric or a fine-tuned prayer that mimics the pope. Instead, I pour out my heart like water, before the face of the Lord... and then I wait!
The Lord doesn’t always answer right away, which is hard for us to accept. We want things instantaneously. We want to pop it in the microwave and satisfy our cravings in less than five minutes. Not this time, Holly!
I had to wait until October for His specific promise regarding my situation. But the way He delivered my promise, was well worth the wait.
If you know me, you know that I’am not an early riser. In fact, 5AM is so foreign to me, I still question if it even exists. I happen to be a light sleeper and the slightest noise or movement will always wake me up in complete cognizance. This particular morning, I felt someone’s hand grab my shoulder and gently beckon me to wake up. I immediately turned to my husband and asked him what he wanted, but he was fast asleep with his back turned towards me. I was in complete shock. I knew someone had touched my shoulder to wake me up. Interestingly, the touch was peaceful. So I asked the Lord if it was Him, and just like that, He begins to answer me. He told me what He was going to do with my situation that I had been asking Him about since January. He warned me that “now” was not the time and to trust that He would deliver on His promise! I would still have to wait, but this time I was armed with a powerful weapon, which was a promise from the Lord. I wept that morning. I rose from my bed with a confidence that could not be shaken. No “naysayer” could take that from me.
On May 6, 2020 at 11:30PM, I was about to go to sleep when the Lord began to speak to me again. The tone He spoke was adamant and with urgency. I got out of bed and began to write everything down. It was as if He was giving me a play-by-play handbook for what was about to happen. He was going to step into my situation, and through a series of specific events, would produce the resolution I had been begging for. I went to bed that night wrestling with awe, wonder, and doubt. Did I hear correctly? Am I losing my mind? If this is all true, there is only one explanation of Who it came from! I remember the last thing I said to the Lord, before falling asleep;
“Lord, if this was really from You, will You confirm it?”
The next morning, I woke up to a phone call. Lo and behold, everything the Lord had prophetically showed me the night before was confirmed through this one phone call. This was the beginning of the resolution I so desperately asked for. I had no idea it would happen that quickly after the Lord showed me. My only job was to get out of His way! I knew His plan, because He had already told me!
I tell you this personal story to encourage you:
If you are desperate, seek the Lord for a specific promise you can hold onto for your situation.
If the Lord seems silent, don’t think He isn’t working on your behalf or has forgotten about you.
Be encouraged, if you are waiting to hear from Him, the Lord is always in the waiting! Trust Him for your situation and read the word of God daily!
#HesRewrittingMyStory
#YesLordYourServantIsListening

Never Say Never

7/1/2020

One day I decided I was going to learn how to draw. The best I could do on my own was pencil a stick-figure. So I did what any 21st century woman would do, I went to YouTube! They say you can learn anyhting on YouTube... and they are right! If I can do it, trust me, so can you!

Meet Bentley

6/16/2020

For years Noah has begged us for a dog, who would become his best friend.
Personally, I’ve never raised a dog and felt hesitant with the unknown (and the responsibility). But in the end, I couldn’t deny my son the opportunity of having his very own dog. With Noah’s 11th birthday fast approaching, it was as if the Lord hand delivered the perfect package... May this angel bless us in ways we could never imagine. Welcome to our family, Bentley!
#ABoyAndHisDog
#AustralianShepherd

Gracie

6/4/2020

I’ve always had sympathy for people who lost their pets but I must confess, I had no idea the anguish they experienced... until now.
It feels like I have lost a part of me that I will never regain. It’s hard to sleep at night because I look over at where she slept and the only thing left is the remnants of her fur.
Grief is haunting and unpredictable. It causes me to behave strangely... why is it that I can throw her food away, but I can’t discard her medication?
I can still “hear” her, and in the corner of my eye, a pair of tennis shoes will trick my mind to “see” her.
The Lord gave her to me as a symbol of what my next 15 years would look like. So I named her Gracie, and that’s exactly the fifteen year season my husband and I have walked in... GRACE!
I’m not sure what will mark the next season of our lives, but I have a feeling it will be STRENGTH!
I miss you Gracie, no one will replace the void that you have left inside of me.
Until we meet again...

Rescued

4/28/2020

One woman was 18, the other is 38.
One woman was lost, the other is found.
One woman was seeking attention, the other is content in who she is.
One was at the club, the other is on vacation.
One woman was broken, the other woman is whole.
One was single, the other is married.
One believed in nothing, the other has her hope in Christ.
One couldn’t afford to get her nails done, the other can.
One never wanted children, the other woman has two.
One was bound, the other is free.
One wanted to end her life, the other lives for hers.
One was a counselee, the other IS a counselor.
One said, “she can’t,” the other says SHE CAN!
#NeverSayNever
#TrueTransformation
#GodGetsTheGlory
#RescuedFromThePit

Kindness Never Takes A Day Off

10/22/2019

“Mommy, I want to bless someone!”
“Is it the person eating behind me?” I inquisitively asked.
Noah’s eyes had been looking in that direction for the past five minutes, which happened to be a dead giveaway.
“Yes!” He responds with compassion.
There was a guy, in his mid twenties, quietly eating by himself.
I asked Noah how he wants to be a blessing to this man? He toiled with the idea and decided he wants to buy him an ice cream.
“Mommy, I’m nervous to approach him.”
“Noah, when the Lord puts something on your heart, He will equip you with the right words. Don’t miss the moment, act on it!”
Noah boldly got up from the table and walked his way.
“Excuse me Sir, I want to be a blessing to you. Can I buy you an ice cream?”
The man looks up in unfamiliar territory and tells Noah he would love a cone. Noah’s face grew a big smile and he skipped off to go buy his new friend an ice cream.
When Noah returned to our table, he looked at me and said...
“Kindness never takes a day off!”
#BeKind
#BlessSomeoneToday

Fear Is A Liar

9/11/2019

“Mommy, fear came to visit me last night.”
Immediately I paused what I was doing, “Tell me about this, Noah!”
“I was trying to go to sleep and I had this thought,
‘Your bunk bed is going to collapse on top of you while you sleep and you will die!’
I was really scared, it felt so real. So, I got out of bed and the moment I started to climb to the top bunk, I had another thought,
‘That’s the spirit of fear, don’t listen to it.’
So, I got back into my bed and I started to pray. I asked the Lord to protect me and to send that thought away from me. He did it, Mommy! I was no longer scared or thought about it for one more moment.”
“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you." ~Psalm 56:3
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” ~2 Timothy 1:7
“When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” ~ Psalm 94:19

Yes and Amen...

8/20/2019

When Noah was sixteen months old, I went to pick him up at Montessori school after an exhausting day at work. Ms. Lupe, his caretaker, pulled me off to the side with conviction in her tone.
“Ms. Holly! Today I was praying over Noah while he slept and I heard the Lord speak, clear as day. He told me to tell you to read Psalm 91.”
I furrowed my brow, “What does Psalm 91 say?”
“I have no clue! All I know is it’s yours!”
Hebrews 11:6 boldly says, “Without FAITH it’s impossible to please God!” So with my faith strapped like a shield around a solider, I got home as quickly as my legs could carry me. My exhaustion had now been replaced with excitement. I flipped through pages of my bible in search of this delicacy until I met the pleasing aroma of Psalm ninety-one.
I’m not sure, those who are reading this, if you’ve ever received what the Greek refers to as a ‘Rhema’ word? It’s when the Word of God is spoken to us for a specific occasion in our life. It’s when you are reading the Bible and the ink leaps off the page and saturates your heart (Hebrews 4:12-“The word of God is ALIVE and active). He will speak to you so personally that you will never read those verses the same again. It compels you to memorize every word while holding it close to your heart so you can speak it back to the Lord in prayer!
In those moments, face to face with Psalm ninety-one, I received a ‘Rhema’ and I cried! These are the precious moments where God pushes through the ‘religious’ walls rectified in our lives and genuine relationship and trust are birthed. It’s a moment in time where Heaven tangibly invades earth!
When my eyes landed on verse fourteen through sixteen, the Lord whispered,
“Holly, there is a time coming soon where Jason will need this promise from Me. You can trust that I will fulfill My promise to him. Hold onto Psalm 91, specifically verse 14-16 for Jason.” I used red ink to mark the date in my bible, next to Jason’s promise.
A year had quickly passed by and with no warning Jason stepped into the most terrifying season we had yet to face! His circumstance appeared practically impossible and I was immediately gripped with fear.
Instead of running to the phone and consulting a friend, I ran to the Throne and fell flat-faced to the ground. Puddles of tears were forming on my carpet.
“LORD! How did we get here? What are we supposed to do now?”
“Psalm 91,” The Lord immediately whispers to my heart!
“Oh my gosh, that’s right...Psalm 91!” I had forgotten about God's promise to Jason for such a time as this.
I grabbed my bible while trying to remember what the promise said!
Before I could read Jason’s verse, my eyes were distracted by the red ink which captured the date God originally gave me the promise!
It said, 10/25/10. With complete shock, I looked at my current calendar and it was exactly one year to the day God gave this oath to me. It was now 10/25/11. I took that as my confirmation.
Psalm 91:14-16
“Because he (Jason) loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”
Every fear that I wrongly gave permission to torment me, disappeared the moment I read this (Rhema) promise! Not only did God do exactly what He guaranteed and we walked out of that season supernaturally untouched but God delivered me from the torment of fear I would have joined with until we were out of that long season!
People often admire my faith but I tell you, it was this challenging season that built my faith to the mighty giant that you see now! When you watch God perform on your behalf so intimately and precisely, your relationship with Him will never be the same!
Which leads me to today; This past season, Jason and I were struggling over believing God for something. So we began to pray and had a group of prayer warriors also praying. We were unsure if God was promising this to us! It was causing some fear and anxiety. That’s when the Lord stepped in!
During church one Sunday, Bridget, a Godly woman prophetically painted a rainbow during worship. In the Bible, a rainbow signifies a promise! At the end of church she came to the front and addressed the congregation. She said this painting was a reminder that God keeps His promises and she quoted 2 Corinthians 1:20,
“For all the promises of God are ‘Yes’ in Christ. And so through Him, our ‘Amen’ is spoken to the glory of God.”
She then handed the rainbow to Jason because she said the Lord told her it was for him. Little did Bridget know just how desperate we were to confirm if God’s promise was a “yes” for our current situation! We took this painting as our confirmation.
Fast forward to this week and God came through and we finally received what He promised us! Hallelujah!
You know, it’s common that when life throws you a lemon, to rationalize a quick, simple solution (to eliminate your pain) is the best recipe on how to make “lemonade!”
We desperately seek any ear to hear our frustration and like a vending machine we expect to receive in return, an immediate answer to our dilemma.
Yet keep in mind, what’s often delivered from a vending machine is subpar and rarely nutritious! When I’am given the opportunity to work alongside a woman whose still sticky from those lemons, I will always point her in the direction to find a specific promise from God that breathes HOPE into her situation! Because, when you receive a promise from God over your difficulties, it pales in comparison to any ‘good advice’ offered from a confidant. The difference is like receiving Doritos from a vending machine versus a Filet Minion from Tom Colicchio’s steakhouse. #YesAndAmen

Godly Friendships

7/30/2019

I was recently asked by a new mom if I could offer any advice I learned along the way in raising my kids. Without hesitation I said, “Keep a close eye on your child and an even closer eye on their friends!”
Who your teens choose to hang out with will reveal what’s hidden in their hearts. It’s as simple as the saying goes, “Birds of a feather, flock together!”
Over the years I could discern if my daughter, Lexi, was struggling simply by the people she chose to bring into her circle. As her mother, I closely monitored her friendships and at certain times her selections warranted intervention. It was never easy and often met with resistance. Yet in the end, Lexi would personally thank me and agree that severing those ties rescued her from entering a dark pit.
As we traveled down this journey together, I made it a priority to pray for God to send wholesome, solid, loving friendships. Where Lexi would be surrounded by girls who would hold her accountable to faith, integrity and trustworthiness.
As Lexi walks into her senior year, I can say with confidence God has answered my prayers. Lexi is surrounded by wholesome, solid friendships who build her up and hold her accountable! I’m proud of the circle Lexi has placed around herself and it reflects the purity of her heart!

Old McDonald

7/30/2019

When Noah was two and a half years old, he would love to get into the store buggy. He would wave at strangers passing by and bless them with his contagious smile.
This particular day we were strolling through Target and Noah felt the urge to sing Old McDonald! He didn’t care that strange looks would glance his way. He simply sang to an audience of one... himself!
Before I could encourage him to lower his song, an employee started to sing along with my son. All of a sudden, “E-I-E-I-O” filled the isles of beautifully displayed merchandise. Noah would raise his voice and then she would follow suit. Back and forth they went until laughter broke out!
Her name tag read, “Judy.”
After their concert ended, I thanked her for being such a blessing. Judy told me that she loved to sing that song because it reminded her of fond memories.
In the next few moments, for some reason she felt safe to share her heart with me about her current struggles. Two strangers in the middle of Target. Unconventional, yet unconditional!
I began to share with her my relationship with Christ and how good He is. She told me that she wanted Jesus but didn’t know how to ask Him into her life.
With excitement, I told her that she could ask Him right now and I would help lead her in prayer. She eagerly said, “Yes!”
So in the middle of ceramics and rugs, Judy and I joined hands, bowed our heads and I led her to her Savior! We cried and Noah started singing again!

To think that the Lord used Old McDonald to bring His daughter to Himself! Sometime He uses the least likely things when we least expect it!

Matthew 18:3-4
And Jesus said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”

Under His Wings You Will Find Refuge - Psalm 91:4

9/5/2018

My latest drawing, and I believe someone is supposed to be encouraged today!

Treasure Hunts

9/5/2018

The other night, Jason and I went to the movies. On our way home, I was craving pancakes and asked my sweet man to take me to a place we rarely go, IHOP. Yet there aren’t many options for pancakes at ten o’clock at night, so I guess IHOP will have to do. As we walked into the location in front of our neighborhood, the hostess greets us and said, “You probably don’t want to eat here. We only have one server and one cook.”
Just as she said that, a customer walked out the restaurant and told us it was the worst food she has eaten. Jason and I both look at each other and our faces communicated to get the heck out of dodge.
My craving was still in charge, so I convinced my husband to travel down the road about ten miles to Denny’s. I was bound and determined to eat those pitiful carbs! As we reached the door at Denny’s, a handwritten sign said, “Sorry! Closed due to maintenance!”
You got to be kidding me! Are we being punked or does my diet know that I’m trying to cheat?
We returned to the car, and my stomach is more rebellious than before.
“Let’s keep going Jason! Just drive to the IHOP in SugarLand!” Another 20 minutes down the road.
One thing about Jason, he will do anything to bring a smile to my face. He always says, “He’s happy, when I’m happy!” (Girls, find yourself a man like that).
Finally, I sat down to order my beloved pancakes, with a grin ear to ear!
Unbeknownst to me, Jason overwhelmingly begins to hear God’s heart towards our waitress. The Lord whispers to him some very specific details about her life and then God gives Jason a word of hope to share with her in those struggles.
For anyone who walks in the gift of “Words of Knowledge,” you know that fear and doubt will stop at nothing to convince you to keep your mouth shut! Yet Jason, decided to take a risk that night.
As he boldly began to share what God showed him, this waitress quickly confirmed what Jason heard was correct and she got tears in her eyes because she knew God was speaking straight to her, through this stranger.
So, in the middle of a busy, late-night IHOP, we all bowed our heads and Jason prayed over this single mom. He blessed her, encouraged her, spoke life over her and then left her a surprise monetary tip the size of Texas.
Sometimes we get frustrated with unforeseen circumstances, all the while God was leading you to something greater than yourself! So next time you’re upset because you are unable to get your “pancakes.” Stop and consider that maybe God is orchestrating a supernatural encounter!
#ChurchAtIhop
#TreasureHunts
#FindAManWhoChasesJesusWithYou
#RightPlaceAtTheRightTime
#GodEncounters
#GodIsInControl
#JustSurrender

Love Always Wins (Part 2)

9/5/2018

Typically people do not air their dirty laundry, especially on a forum where the majority only post the picture “perfect!” I, on the other hand have a different portrait to paint tonight! All for one simple reason... to maybe give hope to one person who may thirst for it!
Over the past month or two my marriage has taken a hit. There has been strife, discord, frustration, offense, anger, selfishness, and at the head of it all, PRIDE! But before I address that, let’s back up a couple months to the fact that I had found myself increasingly distracted from pouring into my relationship with Christ. I’ll spare you from listing all the different road blocks, because quite frankly just about anything can be a deterrent from spending quality time with Him, if you allow it!
When I regularly spend personal, quality, one on one time with God... Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, and self control is the wellspring that flows from within me.
Another words, when you meet with Love, you become Love!
Although the opposite is also true.
If you meet with Pride then you’ll become prideful!
As distance with God grew, I quickly found myself snapping at my husband. Expecting from him, demanding from him, disrespecting him. Then in response, he would attack back and I would then partner with offense! Self pity would be my confidante and I would put my trust in her, a very toxic relationship.
If I had chose to spend time with God, He would quickly remind me of love, grace and mercy.
Instead, the wicked step-sisters, Offense and Self Pity, were encouraging me with anger, frustration, and self protection.
The more I joined with offense, the harder it was to give mercy, simply because I had none to give. That wellspring had dried up.
This past Sunday, I felt the Lord nudging me to come to church, to meet with Him! Clinging to Self Pity, I didn’t want to go. But the Lord was relentless and I agreed. In case you have not encountered an authentic relationship with God yet, allow me to paint a picture for you. It is extremely difficult to meet with Love while holding onto anger, offense, frustration and unforgiveness. If you authentically meet with Him, all of that poison will melt in His presence. Which is exactly what happened. God used the pastor to speak directly into my heart about my own behavior in my marriage. One of the things he said was,
“The divorce rate in the church is the same as out the church. How is that possible? It is only possible because churches are filled with professional listeners. What would happen to the divorce rate within the church if we truly followed God's word above our own SELFISHNESS? The world would change over night if we implemented just half a verse ‘Love your enemies’...We have to be people who follow Christ, not just talk about Christ and fool ourselves. We will never make a difference until we live different.”
This was God’s way of saying,
“Holly, I have commanded you to respect your husband. I have asked you to love people who are difficult. I have personally shown you that forgiveness and mercy are the only way! Go, make it right with your husband. Drop your ‘position’ and ‘rights’ and pick up Love! Humble yourself under the mighty hand of God and when it’s time, I will lift you up in honor (1Peter 5:6)!”
The Bible says, “the Truth will set you free” and that’s exactly what happened that morning. If anyone reading this, has ever joined with offense, self pity, anger, frustration, etc ... you know how challenging it can be to set your PRIDE aside and choose humility.
As I left church, my best friend (God) gave me a gentle warning,
“Holly, when making it right with your husband, DO NOT bring up one thing he has done against you. Only confess your wrongdoings and ask for forgiveness.”
Which is exactly what I did and my husband immediately responded with gentleness and the foolish walls that had been our fortress began to crash down.
My old back-stabbing friends, Offense and Self Pity, tried hard to convince me I needed to tell him what he had done wrong, so I could vindicate myself and show Jason how he had been acting in response. But I was done listening to them. They had gotten me into the pit I was currently in, for crying out loud. I had enough!
But God, He wasn’t through! Later that day after confessing and asking my husband for forgiveness ...
The Lord then began to speak to my husband about his own behavior. You see, God didn’t need me to do that, it was never my job and it would never had been effective (especially coming from me)!
First, God spoke to him through a person and then The Lord confirmed it in a dream Jason had that night. Those encounters with God, shook my husband and Love gripped his heart! The rest of those “walls” came tumbling down.
The result: Peace, love, unity and respect once again ruled my marriage from both sides!
I share with you my struggles, in hope that if someone may find themselves currently befriending my ex-friends...
My prayer for you tonight, is that you refuse to drink their poison any longer and instead choose to go make it right, in Love! Because #LoveAlwaysWins

A Tiny Baby Blue Smart Car

6/26/2017

Noah (age 7) and I were walking through the parking lot to my gym. He was lagging behind, taking his time, humming along to the song in his head. While I, on the other hand, was hurrying to the beat of my own drum. When all of a sudden, I hear Noah's voice take on a tone of urgency.
"Mommy, mommy! Stop, come back here! Hurry!"
Concern, with a hint of curiosity is what convinced my feet to move quickly in his direction.
I find him standing in front of a tiny baby-blue Smart Car. With his hands held over the hood and with strong conviction, he said to me,
"Mommy, we must pray right now for the person who owns this car! We must pray that they stay safe if they ever get into a wreck! Pray with me Mommy, pray right now!"
So in the middle of the parking lot, in the hot Texas heat, me and my son bowed our heads and prayed for the owner of this car.
Unbeknownst to Noah, I actually knew the owner of this car. Her name is Jill and she is a regular at the gym. When I saw Jill that day, I told her about Noah's conviction and she squeezed him tight and thanked him.
Several weeks later I saw Jill at the gym and she told me that a week after Noah prayed for her, a large SUV wrecked into her tiny baby-blue Smart Car.
She said, "Your son has a gift and he saved my life because he prayed protection for me BEFORE this wreck happened! I know it was because of his prayer!"
I have walked many, many parking lots with Noah and he has never prayed over one single car, not even mine.
He never felt led to... until he walked by this little, tiny baby-blue smart car!
Jill was right, Noah does have a gift. He hears from God and then, in faith, he acts on it!
Here is the good news....Those who believe in Christ and have a relationship with Him, ALL have this gift! Every. Single. One. Of. Us!
It's part of the package of being connected to the All-Knowing God! And apparently my 7-year-old son has already figured that out for himself!
My question is, have you?
#ThereIsNOjuniorHolySpirit
#discernment
#whispersfromGod

Published

5/18/2017

WE ARE SO EXCITED!
Last year I posted a story about my daughter (Lexi) and what it looks like to respond in LOVE when somebody hurts you.
When I clicked "send," I had no idea the legs this story would have, as it literally journeyed across the world.
The story quickly went viral and I had two video production companies, news stations, journalists, several huge online media companies, all contact me to publish our story!
The most exciting of them all is 'Love What Matters' published a book with the most inspirational internet stories and our article was selected and published in their book! We received the gorgeous hardcover gem in the mail and I surprised Lexi by wrapping it. She couldn't believe her story was published!
(Rosey News created a video of the story below... here it is)
http://facebook.com/RoseyNews/videos/1419330348113801/

God Encounters

5/18/2017

I was driving down the road to meet with a group of people. When all of a sudden, the Holy Spirit began to randomly download information about a specific lady that was apart of this group. "The download" was so intense, I had to pull my car over and grab a pen to jot down everything that was being said to my heart. I wrote down very specific details that I could NEVER had known or imagined on my own.
In order to protect this person's privacy, all I can say is the 'word of knowledge' shared with me was so personal and revealed a secret this person had struggled with and been tormented over.
You may be asking yourself, why would God share someone's private information with me?
I'll tell you why... because He also provided me with answers that this person had not known (about this situation) and desperately needed to hear.
He provided me with a "key" to unlock this person's doubt, unforgiveness towards herself and shame.
God is not in the business of gossip, He is in the business of setting people free and He wanted to partner-up, by asking me to communicate this message to His beloved! The only thing standing in the way.... was me!
I battled with my own doubts,
"What if I made this up?"
"What if I'm wrong?"
"This person is going to think I'm crazy!"
"I can't share this with her, it's too personal and I don't really have that kind of relationship with her."
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah!
Here is what I can tell you; When a message comes from the Lord... IT WILL NOT GO AWAY UNTIL YOU ACCOMPLISH WHAT HE ASKED YOU TO DO!
I would stay up at night thinking about this. It would flood my mind during the day, and even visit my dreams! The Lord was relentless until I surrendered. You see, I was thinking about myself, God was thinking about her freedom!
I finally reached out and when I shared what the Lord had told me... she cried!
She cried because she knew this came from the Lord. It confirmed things she had privately thought about. She told me, this "secret" was the very situation, many years ago, that had ultimately turned her away from God!
I didn't know that but God did and in this supernatural encounter, He mended the gap that stood between them!
#GodEncounters
#EverythingChanges
#HeIsAGoodFather
#WalkingWithGodRequiresRisk

He Meets Us Where We Are...

5/8/2017

I got my hair done the other day and as I went to leave, my hairdresser walked me out. Before we could reach the parking lot, the owner of the salon next door motioned for us to come see her.
As soon as I entered, she looked me straight in the eyes and said, "Holly, will you pray for my business and bless my new salon?"
There were women getting their hair done, so I replied with a little hesitation, "You want me to pray right now?"
"Yes! Right now!" She said with urgency!
I have to be honest, just because I am in ministry doesn't mean I don't get intimidated and caught off guard.
Yet, I have walked with the Lord long enough to know how He operates, and He usually works best when I take risk and step out of my comfort zone.
Just as I was about to begin, another woman pokes her head in (from outside) to ask a question. But instead of getting what she came for, she quietly sits down as if the Lord positioned her to receive in such a timely manner.
As I begin to open my mouth, I quickly learned that I was not there to "bless this business" but instead the Lord had each woman on His mind!
As I prayed, one by one God began to share things with me about each individual person in that room.
What I heard, I spoke. Which released His presence (love) in the room and each individual heart was fused together.
The things I shared could have only came from the Lord (Someone who knew them intimately) and the listener knew it.
It didn't matter that we were strangers. Hair, no longer was the focus. It was Him who was at the center of it all, which means everybody gets blessed (even His messenger).
For a brief moment in time, busy schedules were put on hold, curling irons were set down, walls began to crumble and strangers wept while sharing their secrets.
It didn't matter if you were "religious" or not! We ALL felt His presence and we all agreed that we had encountered Him!
Church doesn't only reside in a steeple, Church doesn't only take place on Sunday. We, the people, are His church and He meets us exactly where we are, even in a hair salon!

Transforming From The Inside-Out

2/12/2017

True transformation starts on the inside...I often see people posting pictures of their remarkable outer transformation. We admire the hard work and discipline they put into altering their physical bodies by dropping weight and adding muscles. It's great to look at! It's inspiring to all.
But what about a transformation that's more important than that? Because let's face it, you can morph your physical body to replicate Barbie or the Incredible Hulk, but if you're not transformed internally then everything else is meaningless.
This post isn't about some "holy roller" who found Jesus! No!
This is about a girl who was SO lost but now is found.
A girl who was SO blind but now can see!
I remember that girl, all too well. I'm not sure I could ever quite forget her, nor would I want to.
The pain and insecurity she carried was more than she could handle. She would cry in the mirror, every-single-night, wishing that it would be her last day. She numbed her pain with booze, men, drugs and anything else that could temporarily quench her heartache. She was enslaved to the darkness and shackled to its daily (mental) torture.
Some people call this the "rebellious and immature season of life!" I call it, being lost, depressed, hopeless, valueless, shackled, bounded, and in need of true redemption.
Unless you have experienced being filled with fear, doubt, anxiety, insecurity, loneliness, anger, frustration, etc. Then it will be hard for you to understand the importance of being set free of it!
I remember, crying out to God one night from my bedroom (16 years ago), completely exhausted and at the end of myself. Tears rolling down my face I told Him,
"I don't even know if You are real, but I'm tired of doing things my way! Please change me!"
This was my first, authentic encounter with God! There were no bright lights, visions of angels, or an audible voice.
It was just me, an orphan, who found her Father.
My transformation did NOT happen over night. That day, marked the beginning.
In fact, I will continue to transform (into His image) until the day I breathe my last breath!
If you know me personally (before and after) then you can attest to the fact that God transformed me from the inside-out! There is no denying it, no debating it! I am living proof! I have been set free!
#IWouldNeverGoBack
#ButIWillNeverForget
#SoICanHelpOthersTransformToo

Mustard Seed Faith

12/28/2016

I picked up the phone and with a little panic in her tone, my sister said to me,
"Holly, do you have an ace bandage?"
"I do! What's wrong?" I asked.
"Brenna (her daughter) sprained her ankle, there is some swelling and she can't walk on it!"
"I'll be right over," I replied!
I quickly started rummaging through my medicine cabinet and Noah (who was 6 years old) questioned me.
After explaining what happened, he immediately responded,
"Mommy, we must pray for Brenna right now!"
Before he could finish his sentence, he had already grabbed my hands and bowed his head. I joined him!
With authority in his tone, Noah said,
"In the name of Jesus, we speak straight to Brenna's ankle, BE HEALED! Swelling go down, ankle be healed! Lord, heal her! Amen!"
I quickly kissed him on his forehead and rushed over to my sister, Ginger's house, five minutes down the road!
Ginger met me at the door with a confused look on her face.
"Holly, you are probably going to think I'm losing my mind. But shortly after we got off the phone, out of nowhere, Brenna started jumping up and down on her feet explaining that her ankle feels better. I examined her sprain and it's all better! Before that, I had to carry her because she was unable to walk! I swear she really had sprained her ankle!"
Before Ginger could speak another word, I grabbed her hand and told her that she had just witnessed a miracle!

Jesus said, "Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, YOU CAN SAY TO THIS MOUNTAIN, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
Matthew 17:20
#ChildLikeFaith
#JehovahRapha
#TheGodWhoHeals
#MustardSeedFaith

Take The Risk

11/23/2016

This painting hangs on the wall at a coffee shop on Taft Street in Houston. My friend and I happened to sit close by it as we sipped coffee and discussed life.
The nails that currently hold up this piece of art, at one point, held up the One who this picture has captured and the message behind it, IS LOVE!
As I curiously sat and watched, some people would walk by LOVE and NOT notice Him, while others noticed LOVE but immediately rejected Him.
Yet, even though this “act of LOVE” happened over two thousand years ago, He still continues to beckon people and draw them in like the ocean tides.
Just as my friend and I were wrapping up our coffee date, a man who appeared to be in his early twenties laid his body at the foot of this painting and began to weep. The Holy Spirit nudged us to go over to the man. My first thought was, “I can’t go over there and disturb him. Besides, I don’t know what to say.” Although the “nudging” was getting stronger, so we surrendered our human reasoning and made our way to this man. The moment I knelt beside him, he began to weep even louder and so I started to pray out loud. As I opened my mouth, words began to form that could only come from the Lord. I was praying very specific things for a complete stranger. I was speaking destiny into his life, through these prayers, without knowing his name. Afterwards, he told me that he had decided to jump off a bridge later that day and end his life. But the specific words the Lord spoke through me, to him, convinced him that God had a plan and that moment, he chose LIFE!
I often think about this story. What if I would have ignored the Holy Spirit’s prompting to go and see about this man who was hurting? Would the story of him choosing LIFE that day, turn out differently?

Jeremiah 29:11- “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans for hope and a future!”

A Visitation From an Angel

11/22/2016

While I was waiting in line at Starbucks, an older woman stepped through the door and headed straight for me. Her demeanor revealed that she was on a "mission" and had no intention on buying herself a coffee.
I happened to be holding a bible in my arms and when she approached me she boldly said,
"The Lord has a message for you, do you want to hear it?"
She reached her hand out to take my bible and without hesitation, I gave it to her while saying,
"Yes, I want anything He has to give me!"
Prior to this encounter, I had been desperate to hear from the Lord about a situation I was facing that had gripped me in fear. I previously told the Lord that I could not move forward until I heard from Him about my situation! I was currently feeling hopeless and scared.
This mysterious messenger took my bible and began flipping through pages as she was determined to find this hidden treasure with my name on it.
In typical girl-fashion , I wanted to connect with this woman, buy her a coffee and talk about the Lord. BUT oddly enough, she had no desire to sit and chat. As she skimmed through the pages, I asked her questions...
"Where do you work?" I inquisitively asked.
"I work for the Lord," she quickly replied.
"Where?"
"Overseas!"
Just about that time, she had found what she was looking for!
"Here, this is it! This is what He wants to tell you!"
As my eyes fell upon the page, I was introduced to Jeremiah 29:11-14...
"Holly, for I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord! Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity."
... And just like that EVERY question I had was answered and the fear that once gripped me, was now but a vapor.
God spoke straight into my situation and breathed hope back into this lifeless body. Only a God who has memorized me and concerns Himself with every detail in my life, could accomplish this!
As for that "messenger" the Lord sent... Yea, the second I looked back up from reading, she had disappeared, nowhere to be found!
People often say, "The Lord works in mysterious ways!"
I would have to disagree with that statement! The Lord is only "mysterious" to those who do NOT know Him.
He clearly reveals Himself to those who seek His face!

He Is In The Waiting

11/22/2016

Everyone at some point is seeking an answer. Maybe you are seeking answers from your last blood test or possibly an answer from your recent job interview. Some could be probing for answers to life's problems or even their failed marriage. Whichever the case, we all find ourselves at some point, searching!
Recently my dad found himself at a crossroad! Although, he is typically the one you can go to and find "the answers." This time, he was the one who was desperate. So instead of running to the phone to receive direction, he ran to the Throne (good choice). He cried out to God and genuinely asked for a revelation to what he was supposed to do?
He asked God, "Do I wait? Do I do something? Or what do I do?" In that moment all he heard was silence.
You see, my dads been walking with the Lord long enough to know that just because God didn't respond right away... the answer was still coming and he needed to be expectant!
Several days later my dad was preparing to teach at a gun range. He was at a place called, Impact Zone, and for you avid pistol shooters who know this club, you are aware of the high grass and unkept lawn.
Just as God would have it while my dad is alone and undistracted by people, a shiny ray of Light begins to beam from the tall weeds. From the corner of his eye, this small invasion grabs hold of his attention and draws him to the source. He pushes back the grass blades to find a small silver ring mingled with the dirt. In the blazing Houston heat he turns the ring around and just like that, there was his answer engraved on the ring! "BE STILL!"
The chills ran through his spine as a flashback from a few days ago darted through his mind! This was how God chose to answer my dad! Clear and simple, "Be still" and the back of the ring was branded with Psalm 46:10- "Be still and know that IAM God!"
Since this ring was so small, he squeezed it on his pinky because it meant so much to him. He would wear his answer around his finger as a reminder of what he was to do and how special God answered him. Although fast forward several weeks later, he was training a woman who noticed the ring on his finger. She asked my dad where he found HER ring! She said she had lost it and prayed that God would help her find it. God originally gave her that ring to answer her questions through college and she was desperate to find her ring once she had lost it.
Sad to let it go, he handed the ring back to its original owner, while amazed how God used this simple ring to answer two prayers in one swoop.
After my father shared this story with me, I felt led to go online and see if I could find any ring that had "be still" engraved on it.
Since I had never seen the original ring before, I asked Holy Spirit to help me. When I presented my dad with his new ring, with absolute shock he said, "YOU FOUND THE EXACT SAME RING!" Except this one fit his pinky better! Ha! Of course it did!
May this story encourage anyone who is currently seeking answers! Let me ask you this, have you gone to the One who holds ALL the answers? Have you gone to the One who has said, "Come boldly to the throne of grace, and obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need" (Hebrews 4:16)?
He is waiting to answer you, my friend!
#RelationshipNotReligion
#SeekingAnswers
#GoToTheSecretPlace
#HeIsInTheWaiting

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